I didn't actually film this video until Friday of this week.
Yup, that was yesterday.
While it's been really fun to do more lighthearted videos over the last month or so, I've really wanted to put out another video that dives into some of my more serious experiences in the music world. You know, stuff that I haven't really heard many people talk about.
Openly, that is.
Plenty of people do talk about some of the issues I mention in this video (teaching philosophies, self-teaching, research, etc.), but the more sensitive topics regarding bad lessons and clashing expectations with your teacher are more hush-hush. Sensitive topics are typically only shared with a trusted friend or two, for fear of further ruining what your teacher might think of you (which might make your grades worse, etc.).
I'm not bashing my teacher because our bad lessons weren't her fault. The bad lessons weren't necessarily my fault, either. We were simply operating on two completely different planes of thought. It was like have one person from another planet teach another person from a different planet, but neither person knows that the other person is from a different planet that speaks a different language and operates in an entirely different culture.
I couldn't put the above paragraph into words until yesterday. I knew that I wanted to share my bad lessons with you guys, but for the longest time, I didn't know how to do it without sounding self-righteous. I knew I didn't do well at all in those lessons, which was the biggest factor as to why they went so poorly, but I felt like things weren't fair. Now I know it was perfectly fair, but I just had a completely different understanding of what "fair" meant.
I think it's important for those of us who have had bad lessons to really consider things from our teacher's perspective too. We are all human, and not all of us can correctly read other people's thoughts and emotions, so of course you're going to run into people that you feel you don't jive with at all. And some of those people might include your teachers.
And you know what? That's alright.
I've learned far more than I probably ever would have if I didn't study with that teacher. It was the right combination of challenging me musically and challenging me personally that really got me to grow. :)