So I actually started telling this story in my "Why I ended up in music school" video, but I ultimately decided that it was a topic for another video, so I told it in this one.
As you can tell from the last few videos, my music life was heavily influenced by my family. I'm the youngest (for now, until I become an aunt or mom one day...) in my family, so it naturally feels more comfortable to listen, follow, and go with what my family thinks works for me. I also attribute my venture into YouTube to my family as well, as they were the ones who suggested that I give it a try after I showed them video after video of one funny vlogger after another.
While I've grown up a lot since then and have become much more independent, I'm still thankful for my family's ability to see what my strengths were and encourage that I hone those strengths.
I'm pretty lucky, to be honest.
You guys seriously ask tough questions, and I love it.
This week, I had originally wanted to make a more lighthearted video to lighten things up from the last rather heavy video (Why I ended up in music school). But seeing this comment weighed so heavily on my heart that it was literally the only thing I could think of whenever I thought of what video I should make this week:
I mean, seriously, how heartbreaking is that? Reading this comment hit home for me so hard. The story that I tell in this video is not one that I had planned on telling you guys for a while yet. I always try to tell stories that I've already "gotten over," but I can tell from watching myself speak about this that it's not an experience I have fully gotten over yet.
I honestly don't think I ever will. And I realized that that's okay.
It's true, I have not always played at the level that I play at right now. I might be better than a lot of flutists now, but I know that I'm still not the best. It's a strange balance you need to find between feeling like a crappy musician and feeling super excited that you have so many new tricks, techniques, and perspectives to explore.
I won't lie, there are still days that I still feel like the worst musician ever. I even sometimes question why you guys look up to me so much. But there are more days that I realize that I'm here for you guys for that exact reason; I want to reach out and tell you all that it's quite normal to feel this way.
We're in this together. <3
This was an interesting video to shoot. After I shut off the camera, I immediately thought I would have to reshoot the whole thing. I felt like my thoughts were scattered and I didn't actually offer anything useful in answer to this question about why I ended up in music school.
However, when I went to edit the footage, I discovered that I actually did have a theme throughout the video! Essentially, there is no definitive answer as to why I ended up music school, and there are no definitive reasons why you should or should not go to music school. If anything, you simply need to look back at your life and evaluate how dedicated you are to the art of music.
Check out the videos below that I mentioned in the video. :)
"Player 2" by Zachary Antell
"How To Make Money As A Musician" by ThatViolaKid
Oh man, this was so exciting to plan and shoot! I was extremely surprised when I found the Flute Center of New York's email in my spam inbox, about a month after they initially sent the email. It's a huge honour to work with them, as they are the largest flute dealer in North America!
They actually sent me 5 flutes to try out, but I only chose 2 for this video. As you can tell, even just talking about 2 flutes already takes almost 15 minutes, and even then, I couldn't include everything I wanted to say about them.
I've noticed that student model flutes are now finally being made with much better quality and care. For a teacher, that's a huge relief before it's so much easier to teach on instruments that work well than on crappy instruments that constantly leak air. It gets confusing as to whether the student or the flute itself is struggling. But with these new instruments, that problem will be erased!
I would love to continue to make review videos with the Flute Center of New York, but it's up to you guys to let me know what flutes you'd like me to review and show you! Huge thanks to the Flute Center of New York for reaching out and collaborating with me. This has been a blast!
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This isn't the first time I've noticed that you guys delete your comments every now and then. The first time I noticed, I actually had to completely revamp my video after I started filming. I wasn't even frustrated with that part though--I was more disappointed that you guys would think that your comments aren't worth considering! I treasure each and every one of your thoughts, questions, and opinions, and it makes me really sad when you don't value your own voice enough to leave your comment up under my videos.
Know that I value your voice. I may not always reply back immediately, but it's only because I'm thinking carefully about what you have said. I'm a slow replier because I like to make sure that what I have to say really does reflect what I actually think, and I want to find a way to articulate those thoughts in a way that will benefit all of you.
It's not fun feeling intimidated in the rehearsal room, but please don't feel that you're the only one! Everyone feels this way--it's just that no one likes to admit it!
Let's turn things around and realize that we're all in this together, so we might as well help each other!