I actually made these discoveries soon after I made the other posture video and immediately regretted posting that one! But after some thought, I think it's a cool way to watch me grow. :) It's a good thing that I'm still learning, and this channel is about being transparent as a classical musician. I have nothing to hide and everything to share!
I am constantly fighting the urge to hide my mistakes and misconceptions, so really… you guys are actually watching me face it with these videos. I think it has something to do with pride, something to do with shame, and maybe something to do with fear. I'm still working through my thought process about that. One day I might make a video about it. :)
For now, watch me grow. :) I hope you'll grow with me!
What a journey. I resisted the notion that I wasn't a gold player for a long time. I'm not entirely sure why, but I think there was some pride in there. Recently, I've discovered that... well, what's there to be prideful about? Don't I constantly preach that it's not about how precious the metal is that your flute is made of that makes you a great flute player? So why do I care so much?
Regardless, it still took me a while to let gold go. I oddly feel more authentic now that I've fully embraced copper. I'm still asking a lot of questions about how and why I play the way I play.
I hope that this video might help someone else out there who's having trouble finding the flute or metal that works for them. It can take a while, and it's totally okay. :)
This is probably the thing I've made the most mistakes with over the years that I've been teaching the flute. You sort of get into the weird headspace where you think that because you've learned all the stuff you're teaching that you know what your students are thinking and feeling. It was a huge wake up call when I finally figured out that, no, I don't actually know what my students are thinking and feeling unless I sit down and hear them out.
One thing I didn't touch on in this video was that the discussions to figure out what their goals and dreams are often feel like you're wasting time in the lesson. But let me assure you: you're not wasting time. In fact, you're saving time. I have wasted hours and hours of lessons trying to push students to do one thing when they didn't want to do it at all or it wasn't even beneficial to them! We could have made leaps and bounds far earlier if I had just put my pride away as a teacher and truly listened to them first. I urge you, teachers, to listen to your students and not make the same mistakes as me!
I'm really loving my lessons with my students now, and I hope this video is insightful and helpful to both students and teachers. :)