This video turned out WAY better than expected! I hadn't found this particular angle in my new room until now, and it was only because I was forced to stand up to read music on my stand while I played the flute for you guys! The lighting is so much better this way, and I have a lot more room to move around and be expressive. :P
And in terms of me not feeling too well, not to worry, as you can tell from the video, I'm not doing too badly at all, but I was unwell enough to feel pretty lethargic and scatterbrained for most of the week. I hadn't planned on making this particular video this week, as I wanted to save it for a future video, but I just couldn't get this comment out of my mind. My brain just didn't want to venture into any other subject this week!
I also went back to my shotgun microphone, since I needed to move around and be able to squeeze my flute into my tiny space without hitting my condenser microphone. That, plus there are two giant mirror sliding closet doors just to the right of what you see, and I didn't want you guys to see that I hadn't made my bed today (I swear I usually do, just not feeling up to it at all today)!
Everything from the topic and the set-up to the editing was so incredibly smooth that I can't really believe it, especially on a day where I'm not feeling 100%. Feels pretty good, and now, I can go back to bed. ;)
To be really honest, I am listening to this video again while I'm typing this blog post because there's a large part of me that feels like I could have said SO MUCH MORE about this topic than what I've already said here.
That being said, I know the video probably would have gone way over half an hour or more.
I realized I didn't specifically say what about Baroque music makes it stylistically different from Romantic French flute composer music. I'm starting to think that's part of my "teacher brain" kicking in. I want to pique your interest regarding musical styles and let you explore on your own, in your own time and on your own terms.
Basically, I'm trying to get you to productively procrastinate.
I'm not sure if it came across exactly the way I wanted in the video, but I guess that's all part of the YouTube journey. The important part is to keep making content that I think is interesting and helpful to you guys, and even if a few videos don't live completely up to my standards, I need to just keep putting it out there. :) Hope it was insightful for you guys anyway!
It's taken me a long time to make this video because I honestly feel like I tripped my way through my music career. Everything that went right was an accident (including this YouTube channel!), and everything I tried my darnedest to do "traditionally" failed miserably (I should probably make a video about that one day...).
A huge part of these accidents were my successful auditions! Every. Single. One. of my auditions felt like a huge gamble. The ones that failed were because I went in with the crushing feeling that my every note was going to be judged. The ones that succeeded were because I gave up caring that my every note was going to be judged.
And since it's happened so many times, I figured that maybe there is some ironic legitimacy to how I've approached my successful auditions.
I simply didn't care.
Not only was I able to play closer to my fullest ability, I realized I had a few back-up plans behind me that I was going to fall back on in case the auditions didn't work out. Now, I realize that I didn't even see them as "back-up plans"! They were my go-to plans, and the outcome of the audition was basically "just for fun". It made me think more practically about my career, rather than relying on my dreams that would only happen if I passed a particular audition. Life after a successful audition was actually my REAL Plan B!
Granted, I only say all this because it's literally all I've ever experienced concerning auditions. It probably doesn't apply to everyone, but I hope that my story and the things I've learned from it can help at least some of you out there. :)
I actually filmed this first on my webcam two nights before I filmed this one, thinking I could get away with lower quality so you guys wouldn't see all of my zits in all their glory. But today, as I was editing that version, I just realized I couldn't bring myself to upload that quality on my channel.
So I thought to myself, Oh, what the heck. It's not like my subbies don't know that I have acne. Let's bust out my DSLR.
I've kept relatively quiet about my weight journey, but after making this video, I plan on making a more in-depth video about it on my side channel, since most of it has very little to do with music. ;) I wouldn't say that my weight journey has been a struggle, but it's been more of an issue that I've been wrestling with quietly in the back burner of my brain. Cassey from Blogilates really helped reshape and reframe a lot of my misconceptions about working out and "getting a beach bod". She places the emphasis on being healthier, getting stronger, and feeling the energy and drive you get from working out, rather than on simply looking good. She always reiterates that healthy looks different on everyone, so it's unfair to compare your body to someone else's. A lot of the way she coaches reminds me of how I coach my own students through new skills and techniques on the flute, which made it easier for me to focus and get through her workouts. :)
If you haven't already, I hope you start taking care of your body today! It really is worth it, and your body and music will thank you for it!