WE DID IT! WE MADE PART 5!
We're getting to the point where we really need your input on what to do next! If you were to show up to a lesson completely unprepared, what would you like your teacher to teach you? Should I try my hand at getting my mom to sightread? Should I teach her more tone things? Should I attempt to make her hand position work next time?
Let me know in the comments below! :D
There's really not much else to say, but... we'll make it through together. <3
This was quite possibly one of the scariest and yet one of the most defining moments of my career. This was the moment I realized I was suddenly on the "other side" of the student-coach relationship. Now I'm the one calling the shots, making the calls, and teaching students new skills.
That. Is. Freaking. Scary.
At the time that I had my first experience adjudicating, I honestly didn't feel ready. I doubted my competence, I doubted how much I knew, I wondered if people could tell that I had never done this before.
But then I saw the kids, and my heart completely melted.
I just wanted them to learn as much as they could while they were so young. I wanted them to know things that I wish I had known at their age. I wanted them to have a memory of a coach who taught them new things that they didn't learn in their private lessons. I wanted them to have fun and learn.
I essentially found that I had stopped thinking about myself--I was only thinking about them and what was best for them.
I think that's where we teachers and adjudicators find our energy and determination to teach, coach, and help these kids. We're not even aware that we're not even thinking about ourselves until we find ourselves up late at night rearranging chamber groups and rewriting parts for a bunch of kids who aren't even our own flesh and blood.
In short, we just love them. And our hearts burst when we see them grow, knowing that at least a little bit of that was because of us.
The tough part of conveying emotions through music is that you don't have 100% control over your development. As you grow, music opens up to you. Your music grows with you.
I think that's why you can't put an age on "mature musicians". Everyone has a different life story, with different experiences, joys, pain, and losses. Some kids go through much more in their short life span thus far than some adults who are well into their 50's or 60's. Whenever I watch some convey passion and emotion through their music, I always end up wondering what life has shown them that has brought them to this point.
You might find that upon revisiting music that you played when you were little, that there are new sides to the music that you never noticed before. It's kind of like watching Disney movies when you're older--you get a lot more of the jokes that completely went over your head when you were a kid. You get it now.
It's the same with music. :)