So I just had the rudest awakening in the realization that my first flute books are not, indeed, 9 years old.
They're 19 years old.
It seems like it was just yesterday that I was sitting on top of my desk, staring out the window, while I toiled away on that first [extremely boring] page of the Rubank Elementary Method for the flute. I remember wondering what it would be like to finally be able to play difficult music and wishing for a time when any music I played wasn't difficult at all. My tone would always be amazing, and my technique would feel effortless and easy.
That day, of course, never came.
Looking back, I realize that while I've come a really long way, all those feelings I had as a kid studying the flute are still with me today. I still feel like a kid learning how to play this instrument called the flute. I still feel like I suck. I still wonder when that new technique I'm learning will feel easy.
Sometimes I wish that I'd been told early on that these feelings will never go away, but that I should use these feelings to spur my pursuit of flute knowledge. I only wish that sometimes because I also realize that if I didn't experience my flute life the way I did, I probably wouldn't tell my students about this exact feeling with the same conviction.
I really believe with all my heart that these feelings of seeming inadequacy are not all bad and, in fact, can be used for your own good. Ironically, I believe it so hard because I always feel inadequate, and I realize it's one of the biggest driving factors behind my desire to learn more.
Btw, I totally found the books I mentioned ON AMAZON! Woohoo!
Rubank Elementary Method (flute)
Learn to Play Flute Duets
Selected Flute Duets (Easy to Medium)