For a long time, I've been hiding some of the types of music that I absolutely love listening to but are often looked down upon by many classical musicians. When you put a piece of music on repeat, and you know it may not necessarily be appreciated by most of your classical friends, but you also know you are completely obsessed with it, it does really weird things to your classical identity. You start questioning whether what you're doing is actually wrong, and if you should stop yourself from enjoying what you're listening to. Then you end up listening to it in secret.
Come to think of it, sounds a lot like being addicted to music porn.
I came to the realization a while ago that because music has developed so much over history, you can't really say that "classical music" is the best kind of music when you identify as a "classical musician". Back then, what we now know as "classical music" was likely seen as the pop or rock of their time. Ladies would swoon. People would flock to concerts of the most well-known musicians and composers. Critics would bash the musicians. Agents would push their musicians into the limelight and create plenty of publicity for them. Some musicians would go along with it. Others would push back and ignore the critics and agents and just do their own thing and make their own art.
Kind of sounds like what's going on now, right?
So music is just music. Let's embrace it all and learn to appreciate it in all its forms!
Not going to lie, I had a pretty intense internal debate over whether or not I should film this week, given that I wanted to be safer and not use makeup for a little while longer while I wait and see if my stye has truly gone away completely. It's not visible at all in this video, but there seems to be the faintest of scars if you look up close. And given that it's basically a pimple in my eyelid, I'm not that surprised. I scar very easily.
I developed a stye last week and nearly didn't make a video, but I just couldn't resist saying hello to you all. So I showed up like this:
Certainly not my best look, but at least it was something new.
The struggle with adult acne continues far beyond the cystic acne healing. If I am honest with myself, I have to admit that I often still see that cystic acne when I look in the mirror now, even though I no longer suffer from it. Many of scars remain, and they constantly remind me of how I felt back then.
I don't want that experience to go to waste, so I am passing it on to you guys. It's my dream that I can help at least a few people out there come to a better understanding of their friends who suffer from skin conditions.
There was so much more that I could have added to this video, but I wanted this video to have at least some semblance of structure, so I'll leave those for other videos. :)
My first year of music school was a huge turning point in my life--that was the point when I became a full-time musician. Prior to that, I had only treated music as an extra-curricular activity and never really thought I'd make a career out of it. Suddenly, my life was inundated with concerts, rehearsals, gigs, and so many music classes that I felt like I walked into a music version of Hogwarts.
Music school is fun, but... it really is like Hogwarts. There's a whole system there that only works within the confines of the school, and the outside world is quite different. So enjoy music school while it lasts. You will treasure those memories in the future. :)