A huge part of these accidents were my successful auditions! Every. Single. One. of my auditions felt like a huge gamble. The ones that failed were because I went in with the crushing feeling that my every note was going to be judged. The ones that succeeded were because I gave up caring that my every note was going to be judged.
And since it's happened so many times, I figured that maybe there is some ironic legitimacy to how I've approached my successful auditions.
I simply didn't care.
Not only was I able to play closer to my fullest ability, I realized I had a few back-up plans behind me that I was going to fall back on in case the auditions didn't work out. Now, I realize that I didn't even see them as "back-up plans"! They were my go-to plans, and the outcome of the audition was basically "just for fun". It made me think more practically about my career, rather than relying on my dreams that would only happen if I passed a particular audition. Life after a successful audition was actually my REAL Plan B!
Granted, I only say all this because it's literally all I've ever experienced concerning auditions. It probably doesn't apply to everyone, but I hope that my story and the things I've learned from it can help at least some of you out there. :)